Fits

Stephanie: Congratulations ON WORKING REALLY HARD!!!!!!!!!! I hope you have an awesome time doing all the fun stuff.

When I have a RAD fit I feel MAD. I fake cry and scream. WHEN MY MOM LEAVES THE ROOM I PLAY BUT I AM SCREAMING SO SHE THINKS I'M UPSET. I hurt my Mom's feelings. I want to STOP throwing fits. They are not fun anymore.

I felt mad when I threw a fit.
I didn't feel sad.
I didn't feel scared.
I felt glad when I had lunch.

The things I like about myself are:
1. Listening to my mom.
2. Changing it up.
3. Changing up my attitude.

I am grateful for:
1. AWESOME MOM!! ♥
2. NAPS
3. Puddin
4. Daddy G
5. My family.

The best thing about my day was going to Sam's Club with Papa and Monya. The worst thing about my day was throwing a RAD fit.

Thank you for the comments!!!!!!! ♥♥ ♥ ♥

Sincerely,

J

About Having RAD

Miss. Jo: I have dreams like horses, PEGASUS and that is all.

I sometimes have RAD. I feel really MAD inside myself. I feel like a fire is burning inside of my tummy. Soooo, I've be disrespectful to my Mom.

This is my journal that helps me:

I felt mad when I threw a fit.
I didn't feel scared.
I didn't feel sad.
I felt glad when I took a nap.

The things I like about myself are:
1. Working hard
2. Being a normal kid
3. Good choices

I am grateful for:
1. Blog
2. I just got a keychain pony!
3. The frog keychain.
4. Books
5. PLEO!!!!!!!!!!!!



Thank you for the comments!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J

Pegasus

Miss. Faerie Mama: I feel grumpy when I come home too. ♥♥ Tapping and naps help me.

Miss. motherissues: My favorite wii game is my Mom boxing! ♥♥

I read a book about a pegasus and then I said I want, not need, a pegasus. So we could fly instead of paying and using gas, we could relax. O I JUST LOVE PEGASUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥
O I JUST LOVE PEGASUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥

This is today.

I didn't feel mad.
I didn't feel sad.
I didn't feel scared.
I feel glad because I am writing about PEGASUS.

The things I like about myself:
1. I worked hard.
2. Being a normal kid.
3. Me smiling.

I am grateful for:
1. AWESOME MOM
2. Daddy G
3. dictionary
4. PEGASUS BOOK!!!!!!!! PEGASUS BOOK!!!!!!!! PEGASUS BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. moonhorse!!!!!!!!!!!! moonhorse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! moonhorse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is yesterday.

I felt mad when I threw a fit.
I felt sad when I had to stay in my room.
I didn't feel scared.
I felt glad when I saw Daddy G.

The things I like about myself :
1. my eyes.
2. my arm.
3. my hair.

I am grateful for:
1. AWESOME MOM
2. 25 books from the library
3. ME
4. PEGASUS COME DOWN WHERE EVER YOU ARE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥
5. MOONHORSE COME DOWN WHERE EVER YOU ARE PLEASE!!!!!! ♥♥

Thank you for the comments!

Sincerely,

J

We're Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Martin: I see what you are doing. That is not good what you are doing. Please try to work hard on your life and your heart. It's important. My life is so much better than before.

We had so much fun on the ski trip. I worked hard too. I went sledding until my bottom was sore. It was fun!!!!!! I rode all the way home with Daddy G. ♥♥♥

This is my Journal:

I felt mad when I threw a fit.
I didn't feel sad.
I didn't feel scared.
I feel glad because I am doing my blog.

I am grateful for:
1. AWESOME Mom
2. wii
3. BLACK BEAUTY is a HORSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. Puddin and Stud
5. Daddy G

The thing I like about myself:
1. Me working hard.
2. Me being a normal kid.
3. Me working hard on my life.

Thank you for the comments!!

Sincerely,

J

We're Here!!!!!

I am so glad I am here. I made a snowman. I made a snowangel.



I felt mad in the store because I had to be quiet.



I didn't feel sad today.



I felt scared all the way here. I'm still scared but pink hippo is helping me.



I am grateful for:



1. AWESOME Mom

2. snowman

3. snowangel

4. snow

5. playing in snow



The things I like about myself are:



1. I like myself.

2. I am a good person.

3. I am smart.



Thank you for the comments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J♥

Making Good Choices

Yesterday I didn't change it up. I had a RAD kid day. I had to be in control.♥

I had a good day today. I changed it up. I looked in my Mom's eyes and used rubbing. ♥♥

Today I felt mad when I had a bad attitude for a few minutes.

I didn't feel sad all day.

I felt scared and worried about the ski trip because new places are scary. Miss. Kristy gave me the pink hippo to help me. The pink hippo lives in my head.

I felt glad I stayed with my Mom all day. We went to the library and I got 20 books. I've already read 4 of them! We had lots of fun.

I am grateful for:

1. AWESOME Mom
2. library books
3. pink hippo
4. ME
5. picture of Puddin

The things I like about myself are:

1. I am working hard.
2. I am trying to be a normal kid.
3. working on my blog.

I LOVE making good choices!!! ♥♥♥ It is fun. I just love it.

Thank you for the comments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J

Changing up a RAD Day

Miss Hedgetoad: Puddin's favorite game is chasing our cat. ♥

Miss Tracey: Yes, we have a cat and his name is Mr. Stud. ♥

Miss. Faerie Mama: Thank you for thinking of me. ♥

Miss Jennibee: I'm practicing to be a normal kid. It's hard work but I keep trying.♥

I'm having a bad start. I'm trying to change it up. I was being mean, rude, and disrespectful to my Mom. My consequence was to stay 1 hour in my room. I screamed because I felt mad. I used karate chop, rubbing and looking in my Mom's eyes. ♥♥

Sincerely, ♥♥

J

About FN Alt l

Miss Sasha: That's how you make those cute little hearts. ♥ Do all keys at the same time.

Here's a picture of Puddin:

My Dad and I made up. He still doesn't understand. I feel safe now. But I didn't feel safe then. ♥♥

When I act like a RAD kid I really feel sad and scared. My brain freezes and I forget how to act like a normal kid. I'm doing much better at catching myself before the Big Brain Freeze.

Sometimes when I act RAD it's because I've had too much fun. Nobody taught me how to act normal before my Mom. She helps me practice being a normal kid and what a normal kid would say.

Thank you for the comments!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Sincerely,

J

Tired

Marah: I am glad I talked to you!!!!! It was fun tapping with you!

Stephanie: Yes, Puddin is a dog. I am glad next time you are going to talk about animals because I ♥ animals!!!!

Miss Sasha: I think he does feel mad because he doesn't understand I have problems.

I think my Dad is scared too. It makes me feel sad.

I had a big day. I went over to Papa's and Monya's this morning. I made Valentine's Day crafts with Monya and I made cookies with Papa and Monya. It was fun!!!! That made me tired. I am still tired. I'm going to take a nap now.

Thank you for the comments!!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥

Sincerely, ♥♥♥

J

Daddy G

Miss. Jo: I haven't got that book yet but I will eventually!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is my story: My Dad argued at my Mom yesterday. I tried to get him to understand that I have RAD!!!!!!! But he doesn't want to understand. I have lots of tools but he gets mad when my Mom tries to help me. Is there anyway you could help????????????????? I felt scared and mad. My Mom helped me. Then we went to therapy and talked about it.

Thank you for the comments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J

Yesterday and Today

I had good day!!!!! I didn't have to go to my room. I didn't have to go to bed. I wasn't mean to my Mom.

Miss. Motherissues: I love to read!!!!!! My favorite books are The American Girl books, and Don't Touch My Heart. Keep their room really, really, really plain. Don't give them too much stuff. They'll think they don't deserve it.

Miss. Sasha: I don't know but maybe tomorrow I will come up with something.

Miss. Rebecca: Yes it starts to go away eventually.

Stephanie: I bet it is SAD to leave your old church. Is it??????

Thank you everyone.

Today I was slow on dishes. I had a bad 5 minutes then I changed it up!

Thank you for the comments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J

About Yesterday

I had a bad day yesterday. I was mean, whiny, disrespectful, and rude to my Mom. I had to go to bed early. I didn't use my tools all day. I was mad and I wanted to get my Mom mad too.

I felt mad when Mom caught me making RAD choices. I didn't want to be a NORMAL kid because it was too hard. I didn't want to work hard. I needed lots of rest.

Now I am trying to change it up!!!!! I think I am going to be a NORMAL little kid TODAY!

Martin: I can see what you are doing and that is not good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you use some of my tools??? You are being mean to your Mom and your HEART. I did
that yesterday too. I hope you work on your heart today. ♥

Miss. Rebecca: I have more good days than bad days.

Thank you for the COMMENTS!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE STICKERS AND FOLLOWERS AND COMMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Sincerely,

J

Being a Normal Little Kid

Hi!!!

Stephanie, I'm so glad to hear from you!!!! It sounds like you have a nice home!! It sounds like you have an awesome Mom and Dad!!!!!!!

Where IS Martin??????????

I just stopped being mean to my mom and changed it up.

Now I'm going to use my tools to be a normal kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

These are some tools that I will use today, blow up my imaginary black balloon with all my grumpies, hit my angry pillow, Reiki, tapping, rubbing, karate chop and put on my imaginary pink suit. Wearing the pink suit helps me make good choices.

Thank you for the 5 comments!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J

I'm Changing It Up

Where are you Martin and Stephanie?

I changed it up!!! I'm so GLAD!!! Are you glad TOO?
I worked hard. I didn't get my Dad mad at my Mom. I used to do that alot.

I played fair. I made good choices.

Iam so proud of myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for the comments!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J

About RAD

Miss. Hannah: She is afraid of your Love. I can teach you to do rubbing and tapping on her.


Martin: You have to trust your Mom. You have to let your Mom be the BOSS!!!!! You should NOT throw fits!!!!!!!! You SHOULD NOT tell lies!!!!!! I'm just trying to help you. You should NOT argue or be DISRESPECTFUL to your Mom. Your Mom is trying to help you!!

Stephanie: I can see what your brother is doing. I am GLAD you are doing GOOD!!!! I will love it if you would write your FRIEND!!!!!!!!

I had a bad day yesterday and today. I screamed at my Mom and I've been mean, disrespectful, and RUDE to my Mom. I've been acting like a RAD kid. It makes me feel MAD that I've been mean to my Mom. I am trying to be a NORMAL kid now!!

Sincerely

J

The Social Workers

Stephanie: I used to do those things to but not anymore. My birthparents did all those things TOO!!!!!!!!!! Thank you for being BRAVE!!!!!! and telling me your story.

SW took away my therapists because they didn't believe in RAD!!!! That hurt alot. They never told any of my homes that I had RAD!!!!!! They never showed them how to help me. If my good FM hadn't told my Mom that I had RAD she wouldn't have known. My Mom got me the help I needed. Bad SW need to go to JAIL for hurting kids and not finding them good homes. They make me MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would let Puddin BITE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And other DOGS BITE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kids need one home!!!!! THEY DO NOT WANT TO BE A FOSTER KID!!!!! THEY WANT TO BE A REAL KID WITH REAL PARENTS!!!!

Miss. Kristina is a nice, nice SW though!!!

BE NICE TO YOUR MOM TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sincerely,

J

P.S. HI, Miss Chrissi!! I am glad you're PROUD of me!!!!!

The Past

Meg: My main goal is be a NORMAL little kid! That's ENOUGH!!! I do want to help other kids that have RAD.

When I was in FOSTER CARE people touched my private parts, people let me hit my HEAD, they beat me, the bad FM beat my head, locked me in a closet, made me SLEEP in a bathtub and on a rug by a door, and my sister tried to drown me when I was a baby. It wasn't OK!!!!!! I had a bad life. It was really, really hard to take care of myself.

My Mom tells me my past does not define me . I think she's right!!!


Today is a new day. I have a safe home and a Mom that LOVES me no matter what I do.

Sincerely

J

Answers and other stuff

WOW 27 COMMENTS
!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you for being BRAVE!

Linda B: I wish I could visit her. I did those things to my Mom alot. It was because I didn't want her love because I thought it was unsafe. I was scared of LOVE. Maybe have her do TAPPING on LOVE IS STRONGER THAN FEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She has to want to get better first you know.

I used to bite, hit, kick, scratch, spit, scream, break my door, hurt Puddin, and break my Mom's stuff.

This is not who I am today!!!! I don't want to be a RAD kid!!! There is HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kim: It feel safe!!!

Listen to the words of my favorite song (I learned to copy and paste!!!!!!!!!)

Maybe we're all different
But we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You're caught between just who you are and who you wanna be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here, right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel you're drowning in the shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it seems you're lost, alone and feelin' down
Remember, everybody's different; just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
Right here, right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Be who you want to be, be who you are
Everyone's a hero, everyone's a star

When you wanna give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect; God makes no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
Right here, right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
(I say welcome) Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
(welcome) you gotta believe
Right here right now, Welcome


Sincerely,

J

The Life Before My Mom Got Me

BAD people hurt me. My birthmom, birthdad and birthsister hurt me too. A fostermom hurt me many times. A social worker kept sending me back there and to too many homes. When I was a baby nobody took good care of me. Back then when I was a baby BUGS crawled on ME. I still HATE bugs. Nobody kept me SAFE. I had to take care of myself, or I would DIE. This is why I have RAD. I am embarrassed to tell you other things but maybe another day.

Social workers need to keep kids safe and don't let them go from home to home or stay with BAD PEOPLE and birthparents!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why do you have RAD?

Thank you for the comments. I LOVE the stickers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SAFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Answers

R: I love weighted blankets too. It feels safe.

Stephanie: I feel scared around new people and lots of people. I used to make myself sick too. I threw up on my Mom alot. If she gave me something sweet I would throw it up under my bed. Back then I didn't want my Mom's LOVE, but now I do!!!!!

Bethany: when I get mad I throw a fit. Now most of the time I use other ways to get my mad out. It's HARD!!!!!!!!!!

Remember: Love is STRONGER than fear. Listen to your Mom all the time.

Thank you for the comments. I LOVE comments!!!! Thank you for being BRAVE!!!!!!!

My Mom and I are making videos on tapping and brushing and rubbing. If you want to see them email my mom.

Answers

Miss. Sheri: When I grow up I want to be a therapist and a vet.

Miss. Ashley: Thank you for explaining CP.

Other Mother: You can learn about tapping and rubbing on my Mom's blog. She's still working on it. I do tapping 3 or 4 times a day.

Here are some things I do to get better:

1. Yoga
2. My Mom stays at home with me all the time.
3. REIKI
4. Strong sitting
5. Practice stuff
6. Tapping
7. Jumping on mini tramp
8. Rubbing
9. Brain Master
10. BABY TIME!!!!!!!!!!
11. Snuggle time
12. Wearing my vest
13. I work hard and want to change
14. Music
15. Brain games
16. Brushing

Thank you for your comments and stickers.

Sincerely,

J

Answers

Good Morning!!!!!!

Look at my STICKERS!!!!!

Miss. Brenda: My MOM makes me feel the most safe when we do baby time and she doesn't let me be around STRANGERS.

Miss. Ashley: I snuggle with HONEY BUNNY!!! My Mom gave me Honey Bunny. Cuddle things are AWESOME!!!!!!!! It makes me feel awesome and safe when my mom cuddles. It's very safe under all the blankets. Can you tell me what it feels like to have cerebal palsy.

Miss. Linda: I was 5 when my mom found me. I wish my mom had found me when I was born. I felt mad because it took so long for her to find me.

Miss. Annette: I'm afraid other kids might not like me. I don't like to give up control to other people. That's scary.

Miss. Corrine: RAD is hard. Rad is old behavior. It means being mean to your mom, being mean to your pets, being mean to everyone. RADS don't trust anybody. RAD kids feel like they have to be in control. NORMAL kids don't. RAD feels scared, mad and being mean to everyone and every pet all the time.

The hardest part is not RELAXING and having to be in control.

Miss. Sassy: I feel like I have to be in control and not following the rules. RAD kids are not fun.

I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY MY LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited I have stickers! My friends Winnie and Phoebe came over to play with me today. I don't know how to play with other kids yet because I still like to be the boss. My mom is helping me learn how to play with other kids. Nobody hurt Winnie and Phoebe when they were babies so they'r not like me. They know something is wrong with how I play but they still play with me. They try to help me too. I still feel scared when other kids are around me and I feel mad whenever kids are around me too. I feel mad because I want to be the boss and I want to be the boss because I'm scared too.

It's time for me to go do my tapping and go to bed. I'm listening to Reiki music tonight.

Thank you for the nice comments. HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What would you like to know about being a RAD kid?

My First Blog

Ok. My mom let me have my very own blog. I hope that you can see the way I am changing my life. My mom told me that you might have kids that have RAD too. I am going to write about being RAD and how I'm working hard to have a normal kid life. You can ask questions if you want to. Maybe it will help another kid who wants to get better.

Miss Kristy told me that I am anxiously attached so now I am working on being securely attached. See I'm still worried that my mom might leave me or throw me away or she might not come back for me. I had a lot of that before my awesome mom found me. It wasn't fun. A lot of people hurt me and didn't take good care of me. Mom does take good care of me all of the time but sometimes i don't believe it especially when I get scared.

I had lots of practice being RAD so sometimes I forget and do things before I think. I'm learning how to practice doing normal things. It takes lots and lots of practice. Sometimes I think I can't do it. I've done lots of bad things to my mom but she still loves me no matter what.

I am waiting for lots of stickers.